The Inner Sanctum

It seems that I’m finally feeling the effect of karma. I decide that I only want her and she has already moved on. She’s playing the same game with me that I played with her. I realized this after a 1am two-second conversation and an “I’ll call you back.” These are the times that I need to record a plethora of thoughts that you may call songs, but THAT outlet has been discontinued for the time being. What’s worse than pain is being inspired by that pain and having no outlet to properly express what’s swimming around in your head. I drown myself in meaningless things, hoping they will distract me from reality. The highest point in my life (thus far) have been the darkest days for me. I think I can finally appreciate a love song. That’s funny because I’ve loathed them for so long. I’ll convince myself soon enough that I’ll be fine. That’s the saddest lie that I’ll have to bring myself to tell. Let honesty excuse my betrayal.